Over the past 3 months, I have been on a very powerful inner journey. Each state I visited was like another country and each city presented me with new sets of circumstances that I felt absolutely unprepared for. There were times when I could stay centered within my own being; to be the eye of the storm. There were other times, when the sensations of being tossed about in a dingy at the mercy of the storm; the experience of complete powerlessness.

In the outer world, events came into form out of the blue while other events de-manifested with little to no notice. New people took interest in what I am offering while others chose to disconnect and remove their support. Each time this happened, my internal reaction to the outer world become the next roadblock for me to transcend.

On two separate occasions, I spent time in a studio to create new recordings with my 7 tibetan singing bowls. Each time the actual recording dissolved into the ethers to varying degrees. Initially the choice was to react to the de-manifesting. However, this created a strong nudge to go deeper in and continue to create from a new place; a sense of spaciousness.

I am now certain that both inner and outer realities have to align in order for the new to be birthed into form.

LIFE ON THE ROAD…Is Nuts

For those of you who have never chosen to live on the road – read on with an open heart. If you crave stability, predictability or a sense of feeling in control; then life on the road is not for you. The energy is wildly chaotic, unpredictable and destabilizing in ways that even I can not put into words. You get to see the best of human behavior and you get to see it at its absolute worst. However, if you want to live inside the mystery that I call life – I highly recommend it. And this is not for the faint of heart.

Given the current state of the planet and the mindset of its inhabitants; choosing to engage and interact with other human beings can be quite challenging. So much is dissolving and changing moment to moment that I literally watch the status of places, events and sessions vanish in front of my eyes. Places to stay evaporate with little to no notice. And friends who said they would support you and your work, choose to disengage and not communicate that reality. Others will quite frankly, remind you that their lives are more important than yours.

I find it interesting that people assume that being on a tour is fun and easy. Or that this tour is a vacation for me and not a business venture. So far, I have not found it easy. However, there are incredible insights and aha moments. There are also amazing discoveries into who you are and who you are not.

The most important thing to pack is not found at Target, Walmart nor will even fit in your suitcase. I would call this Radical Trust, Surrender, Focus, Persistence, Patience (with yourself) and a constant Sense of Humor. It also requires an ability to weave in and out of the never ending rules that society finds comforting. Some days I accomplish this, some days I do not.

Perhaps when I complete the tour, I will conduct a workshop on the Art of Living on the Road.. not! I wonder if Jon Stewart is looking for writers for his show?????